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new. [Sunday
November 16th, 2008

 Hi everyone!
I had a livejournal years ago but am happy to be back, determined to find support on my path to recovery, and help others struggling with the same diseases/addictions/traumas. I will post tonight on my page a summary of my first step so those of you who want to can get to know me a little better. Thank you all for being here and looking forward to sharing my experiences, struggles, strengths, and hopes.
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anti-pro-ed rhetoric? [Saturday
August 5th, 2006

I'm just passing through, and I have a question.

Do any of you think it might be effective to point out to those with eating disorders the many celebrities that are popularly viewed as attractive that weigh about 40 pounds more than them?

I have a strong desire to put up pictures of them with captions that read "fatter and more attractive than you."

Society and images of skinnier celebrities created these disorders; why cant counterculture and images of healthier celebrities combat them?
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February 6th, 2006
Is there a petition to get pro-ED content off MySpace?
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February 6th, 2006

HI everyone, just going to drop you a story about my best friend. She is the kind of girl that every Anorexia wanting to stop should look towards.

My friend is amazing, she is so sweet and caring, and she is one of those people who finds it hard to say something mean about anyone. I only meet her a few years ago. One day she confessed to me that she once had Anorexia. I was really surprised, her weight now is so healthy.

She told me when she realised she was making herself sick.

She was at Uni, she was wearing a little tank top, she was eating a little cake. She went into the bathroom and looked into the mirror. She was horrified as she watched her cake move down and around in her tummy. It suddenly dawn on her that she was kill herself that there was nothing there but skin and a cake. She suddenly felt like she would just disappear from being too skinny. She did something about it.

She is now so healthy, she is a size 10, the same as me. SHe is really sexy, she has huge boobs, size D which she loves. She says she was silly for giving boobs up for being skinny. She has the most amazing curves and boys just fall over her, desperate to get her attention.

I have only seen one photo of her as an Anorexic. I found it in her room once, it gave me the worst shivers. To think that she ever thought she was preety like that. It frightens me to think if she hadn't waken up from this, I may have never met her, and she would never have been given the chance to make my life so special.

I share a photo of her now. she is the girl on the left with the fringe.

I love you Jae.
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January 26th, 2006
[ mood | angry ]


The FDA might approve an over-the-counter drug that anorexics can easily abuse.

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January 22nd, 2006

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October 8th, 2005

[ mood | scared ]

i feel empty.
everything is in vain?
does she hate me?

last night i dreamt
i pulled a shadow from her.
i pulled and pulled until it all came
it was blacker than black
full and heavy with pain.

im sorry i dont know how to go on
i feel broken today
deeply disturbed
something inside me shifted

everything looks different today.

i am the shelf that is buckling
tremendous pressure

i feel empty
my heart feels heavy

all the secrets all the lies
all the work of it

she puts so much effort into hurting herself.
quiet morning, quiet mourning.
i feel like i have already lost her.
i feel defeated, angry, ashamed, dirty,
hopeless, foreign, silenced, ignored, brushed off.
i am all of these things today. full with it all.

i will carry them all on my back.
bruised and ridiculed. made a fool of.
im the one they laugh at.
behind my back, or even in front of me.
i just want her to be ok.

these thoughts will eat me alive. every minute of every hour.


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hurting. [Thursday
October 6th, 2005

[ mood | enraged ]

i am frustrated beyond frustrated. if you think im fucking stupid, im not.

i cleaned a toilet and fucking cried today.
i try to talk to her. to let her know i love her.
but i am the "worst enemy". i am trying to "sabotage" her.

i guess im an asshole for knowing what the fuck is up?

"bulimic off and on for seven years. "bulimorexic" for the past two years."
she thinks we should sit back and watch her die. watch her curl up in a fetal position from lack of nutrition, and have seizures, "black outs" black outs because her brain matter is decaying inside her fucking skull because it cant run on fucking fumes. i guess she wants me to sit back and "let ana run with her bad self". and the support they give her is to tell her to make her journal friends only. i wonder if those internet friends will come and see her in the fucking hospital when she is on venilators and hooked up to all kinds of ticking dripping things.

she stayed here with me, i thought she had fun. but apparently, i am the enemy and i am evil and i am a ruin-er. because i fed her. because i would do anything to save her. anything. it hurts. it hurts like nothing in my life has hurt before. hurts more than being ignored and pushed aside by my dad. hurts more than my mom telling me she hates me cos im just like my dad. hurts more than anything. why wont she believe me. why wont she try?

i have known pain in my life. i have been verbally, mentally, physiclly, and yeah, even sexually abused. people have pain. i know people do things that are self destructive because of their pain. i have done lots of self destructive things. i know self destruction. i have stuffed my hand into a garbage disposal, with my other hand on the on switch, crying like a little bitch, an inch away from turning the motherfucker on. to hurt oneself is a way of saying "no one can hurt me more than i hurt myself". i have walked through self destruction, and came out on the other side. its fucking hard, but i know i was worth it. she is worth it. she just has to believe it. it hurts so bad to feel this fucking helpless. i would do fucking anything to stop this from taking her from us. i know im being fucking selfish, but she is too.

im so fucking pissed off and hurt and i feel like my insides are shaking and pulling, i want to break things. i want to scream and cry. and it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts. i hate ana. i hate mia. i want my fucking little cousin back.


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new member... hello everyone :) [Sunday
June 12th, 2005

I think I'll start off by introducing myself...

-My name's Erica, I'm 16 yrs. old (17 in less than a month woo hoo!), and I've had an eating disorder for about 2 years now (anorexia nervosa with bulimic tendencies, or so it says on the diagnoses sheets my parents were given from the hospital).
-Therapy, hospitalizations, and such: I attend an adolecent support group once a week, see my therapist/psychologist/counselor/whatever you want to call it once a week, see my dietitian every 2-3 weeks, and my mom takes me to get my blood drawn once in a while (to check my potassium and electrolyte levels... i was at risk for cardiac arrest the last time i was hospitalized). I've been hospitalized in an eating disorders unit twice and hospitalized once before that in an adolecent psychiatric ward for attempted suicide, cutting, and depression. I also go to ANAD meetings once in a while when I have the time.

-I've spoken at a conference for girls with my adolecent group and just the other day I had the opportunity to speak at the ANAD candle light vigil... which honors those who have died from eating disorders and those who still struggle and are trying to recover.

-What my attitude towards EDs is right now: I've been in recovery for a few months now, but I hope that one day I will be completely recovered. I also hope that one day, the people that i know personally with eating disorders, as well as those i don't know and may never meet that also struggle, will be able to choose to recover or at least open their eyes and attempt to recover.

--- i think this is a pretty good introduction... so yeah, hi all...!
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Hmmmm [Thursday
January 27th, 2005

I know its been a while. Ive meant to make some post but havent found the time, being oh so busy and all with my oh so dramatic life.

Anyway, I was sitting in a doctors office today waiting for my Dad, and I had about 50 minutes to myself. I looked at the bookshelf and noticed this green book called 'Wasted'.

I had no idea what it was about, but the tittle seemed nifty, so when I pulled it out it read on the cover a ,'grisly and gripping story of anerexia and bullemia'
Im really not sure if thats spelled correctly. So well if it isnt.

I began to read, and frankly, its really interesting. I myself have never suffered from either of those ED's, but the book still adresses self esteem issues everyone can relate to.

It an autobiographical acount, written by a person recovering from Anerexia who isnt quite on top yet. Its really interesting because its an account of why she choose that lifestyle, why she kept it, ect.

It has a lot of facts, and I was shocked about some of the things I thought were true that aren't. It shows the myth in the stereotypes and provides knowledge about the ED's, while still showing the realistic eiws she has now, that ED's are not about strength and control, but are really about covering up some hidden pain. She even mentioned that because her parents were health freaks, she developed an obsession about food.

I never realized how dominating an ED can be on your life. I still havent finished, but I plan on checking it out of my local library.

So, if you havent read it allready, I strongly recomend 'Wasted'.
If you decide to read it, be sure to let us know what you thought.
Thank you.
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January 11th, 2005


hey guys i found this really great story, its this fashion designer guy who launched an anti eating disorder campaign and has gotten alot of other companies to join him. like 98% of the poeple who try out for him [[hes a really famous photographer]] are on diets and a shitload of them had eating disorders so he decided to do something about it and now hes actually saved peoples lives by telling them they couldnt model for him until they gained weight.
Pulled a Petal

January 8th, 2005

Hey guys! Thanks to all of our members for joining :)

I know there aren't alot of updates as of now, but hopefully this community will continue to get bigger and better.

What kind of things would you guys like to see in here? Any suggestions would be awesome :)

Anyways, we're always here for you if you have any questions, comments, information, or problems, so dont be scared to post!

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January 8th, 2005


Hello! I'm new! I didn't exactly have a full blown eating disorder. However I do struggle with the idea of gaining weight. I do work out , I don't feel it's obsessive,and I have thrown up a few times in the past. I guess this is to prevent me from developing an eating disorder. But I think it's absolutely awesome that you guys realize that what you're doing isn't the way to go and have came out of it!! I hope some day I won't worry about gaining weight. I guess alittle bit of that is normal..but proably not natural or healthy...did that make sense?

  Also I joined this because I am extremely disgusted but the overwhelming amount of Pro-ed sites.

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January 8th, 2005

Like no one posts here!!! Anyways I have a question..someone once said that purging is fast,throwingup,extreme exercise. Is this true? Do u have to fast to purge? I'm soooo confused
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January 5th, 2005

i made a banner for the community. hopefully ill work on a layout including it later. this is the first banner/blend ive ever made, so i really hope you guys like it..

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January 5th, 2005

hello everyone! I just joined today ! My name is Giggs ,I'm 17years old. And totally against eating disorders and the effects that they have on people. I was ALMOST a bulimic but caught it before it turned into an eating disorder. The media is in large part the reason so many teenage girls (and guys) feel the need to reach perfectionism. But the reason people never reach their goal of perfect,is because there is no perfection,what might be perfect to one person isn't to the next so people are trying to reach somehting that doesn't exist!Anyways I'm here.hi
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January 4th, 2005

[ mood | shocked ]

I just joined this comunitee and wanted to share my views on what I found on livejournal on Ana

I think it's absloutly positivly DISTERBING! I mean seriously I was nearly throwing up at the stuff I found. It's scary how many people are ana it really is. I can't believe how many people's lifes it can destroy.

Really I'm only 50kg and I TRY to put on weight to get to a healther weight as I know what I am isn't healthy and I would prefer to be at a bigger weight to be honest.

I'm sorry but I can't write any more down.

x-posted to my own journal

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promo button [Saturday
August 7th, 2004


<a href="http://www.livejournal.com/community/XXanti_edXX"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v317/bugblinkies/antied1.gif"></a>

made it really quickly, will come out with somthing better later, but for now itll do eh?
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January 1st, 2005

thank you to everyone for joining and showing your support. i really appreciate it. lets hope we get a buncha new members :)
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August 8th, 2004

Eating disorders are a disease, not a lifestyle.
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